Sometimes everything has to be enscribed across the heavens so you can find the one line already written inside you. Sometimes it takes a great sky to find that small, bright, and indescribable wedge of freedom in your own heart. David Whyte


on November 14, 2015

Pain is strange company
Currently occupying my mind
Taking hold of my freedom
Bringing fear to my heart.

Last week pain startled, disturbed sleep in the night
Reminding me of before when it was the same
When doctor arrived at my diagnosis
A nerve gone astray and inflamed.

He showed me the x-ray.
Tortuous path of the nerve
Wending its way over curvature
Of spine I didn’t know was there.

He named spinal stenosis as also involved.
Harrowing thought – What could he do?
A course of steroids and some other pill
Set me aright for a while – until.

Old nemesis reappeared – a thief in the dark
That stole my sleep. After two nights of pain
I called a new doctor to seek relief
Earliest appointment for several days later.

And then pain stopped. Puzzlement to me
I showed up for appointment recounted odd tale.
“My dear, that is normal for what bothers you.
Sciatica is your problem. I have it, too.”

“It’s not the end of the line as you fear
But only a speed bump placed in your way.”
Wonderful news I am really fine
I can go back to my “normal”. Hip hip hoorah!

12 responses to “Resetting

  1. I am glad you are well!! I hope you feel better!

  2. vivachange77 says:

    Right – no fun, but good to know that it comes and goes.

  3. J Lapis says:

    Ohhh, I’m so glad for the ending to this–I was nervous about the “old nemesis reappeared, thief in the night”. I’m most empathetic about pain, and also doctors…I was certain I had sciatica years ago, but the doctors disagreed with me…and thus I began what turned into years of addiction to Rx opioids. The “coming and going” aspect of pain, or any condition/symptoms, can definitely throw us for a loop (does anyone say that anymore?). Anyway, you are in my nightly prayers πŸ™‚

  4. vivachange77 says:

    Thanks for your prayers. I’m sorry for your pain and addiction. Learning to live with pain and not get spooked must be an art. I realize the wisdom of living one day at a time and am grateful that the pain is manageable now without meds. ❀

  5. Zee says:

    I like the title and the ending πŸ˜‰ …m glad u r doing great πŸ™‚

  6. I of July says:

    relieved that you are all right dear:)

  7. I hear you on this one. You said it well. So glad you are feeling better! ❀

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