Sometimes everything has to be enscribed across the heavens so you can find the one line already written inside you. Sometimes it takes a great sky to find that small, bright, and indescribable wedge of freedom in your own heart. David Whyte

Breaking Point: Clouds of Mercy

on July 30, 2015

William Cowper wrote

“Ye fearful saints fresh courage take
The clouds ye so much dread Are filled with mercy
And will break with blessings on your head.”

I wrote before of my redemption and its alchemy.
Moving away after ending an empty marriage
And learning from my scars compassion
For many other wounded ones around.

I thought that I forgave and was forgiven.
My grieving done and quietly put away
Still sadness lingered as I remembered
Dreams of what never came to be.

I was startled when above me broke dark clouds
And drenched me with a precious gift unknown.
I learned to view my memories down-side-up
And found a vein of gold embedded there.

News that former husband and his wife
Were moving worked its way into my heart.
I felt sad because I knew the worth to him
Of life and work that he would leave behind.

I sent an email wishing him success.
He thanked me then wrote words that changed the game
“You are always an important part of life to me”.
And I wrote “Our years are an irreplaceable part of mine”.

That’s all it took. Broken dreams fell away.
I saw rise instead parts I treasured that were “us”
Understood that ours was a marriage all its own.
We have a unique and quirky history.

I sought and framed a photo that I like of him
And placed it among others of my family.
I feel so free and open to include them all.
A gift of pure forgiveness made it so.

Dungeon Prompt: Breaking Point

23 responses to “Breaking Point: Clouds of Mercy

  1. Sreejit Poole says:

    Beautiful story. Thanks for sharing it.

  2. Oliana says:

    Nicely penned…glad you found peace:)

  3. Lovely words of acceptance, forgiveness and the celebration of what was.

  4. I of July says:

    by far my favourite – it has all the human emotions that transcend mere words… just excellent!

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  6. Karuna says:

    Beautiful. I love your description of the process and am glad you came to forgiveness and peace.

  7. Resa says:

    Beautiful spirit!

  8. Sonya Kassam says:

    A heart warming read

  9. hbsuefred says:

    I think your poetry is improving as you deal with these more personal subjects. It may be painful but it’s well worth it. Thanks for sharing.

  10. vivachange77 says:

    I appreciate your feedback. I agree that I write from a deeper, sometimes painful, place when I write about personal things.

  11. Fantastic share from William Cowper. Also, “I thought that I forgave and was forgiven. My grieving done and quietly put away” made me gasp with recognition. Just shared this feeling with others in a workshop the other day. The feeling was ” I thought I had gotten over that.” It was dealing with the memoir topic. This one really hits home.

  12. vivachange77 says:

    It is a wonder how we connect with “mere’ words and draw life from each other’s experience. Glad you like the Cowper. I’ve sung those words in a hymn many times.

  13. JoHanna Massey says:

    Oh this is really just so well done! Thank you.

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