Sometimes everything has to be enscribed across the heavens so you can find the one line already written inside you. Sometimes it takes a great sky to find that small, bright, and indescribable wedge of freedom in your own heart. David Whyte

How it all began.

on May 18, 2014


What we call the beginning is often the end
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
The end is where we start from.

T.S. Eliot

It all started while watching old family slides at Christmas time a couple of years ago with all my children and grandchildren.

At that time I was remarried. My second husband and I had become grandparents a bit late in life and both delighted in our grandchildren. His lived in the same city as we did. I visited my children and grandchildren who lived some distance away as often as possible, but there is no substitute for on the ground, everyday grand parenting. I wanted to get to know my grandchildren by being a part of their everyday ups and downs. Deep inside I understood that if I reached the end of my life and hadn’t made this move I would regret it.

I didn’t know how this would come about. And then we watched the slide show of family photos. I felt the indescribable and irreplaceable pull of BEING FAMILY. There is nothing like it. It gave me the confidence and energy to make my life changing move. When I told my sons what I intended to do they replied that I sounded so free. They could hear it in my voice.

I had no idea how to tell my husband about my dream. I was afraid he would be terribly hurt and angry. A friend suggested that instead of telling him my decision, I ask him how we could work out plans together for me to move and rent an apartment. And we did. What I so dreaded never occurred. It’s like the words of the poet William Cowper in an old hymn, “Ye fearful saints fresh courage take, the clouds you so much dread, are big with mercy and will break in blessings on your head”.

2 responses to “How it all began.

  1. Wonderful! Nothing would’ve replaced the time you missed watching those grandkiddos grow up. =)

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